Saturday, June 30, 2012

Day 314: The Bright Side

Why It's Good that I Didn't Get the Grant:
  1. I don't have to commute into Boston 20 hours a week, which, honestly, I was NOT looking forward to.
  2. More time at home with my kids, which is what I want most. (Sounds funny, given how often they push me away, but I feel like these are the ages when they really need me most.)
  3. Nothing is stopping me from writing this book. I've written one already, I know I can do it, and Inspirational Kathy believes this one is much more marketable than my first one.
  4. I've never had the experience of producing fiction with a metaphorical gun over my head — I might not have liked it at all.
 So — it's okay. And I did do well in the contest, and if I ever apply for anything anywhere ever again, I can refer to myself as a Top 5 finalist for the BPL grant. And that is something.

(Mom said, "So only four people did better!" I said, "Mom, all they told me was Top 5 — maybe I came in second!" And that's what I'm choosing to believe: I totally came in second.)

I still would have liked to win. BUT. It's truly okay. And I am having a lovely summer so far.

Today we did our chores quickly, then cleaned the basement, and the house sparkles and the kids didn't argue or complain, and we had a lovely family lunch at Bertucci's, with lots of side dishes and wine, and tonight Mimosa is babysitting for The Lovely Diane, the menfolk are doing their thing down in the basement, and I addressed my mending pile, drank more wine (wine is key to my Good Attitude this weekend, I believe), and watched That's Entertainment! and highlights from Season 3 of The CArol Burnett Show. And now I'm going to take a hot bubble bath and read Anna Dressed in Blood, which I forgot was on my stack. I just started it, it looks AWESOME.

Thank you, dearest friends, for your wonderful supportive notes. I appreciate hearing from you, more than I can say.

Off to the tub!

—Lady C, whose favorite Python is Graham Chapman

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