Saturday, May 24, 2014
It's Happening Fast
I called Mom back and told her I'd be there tomorrow, and I could hear the relief in her voice. She's been so brave, and she has lots of people with her now, but she wants her girl.
Youngest brother and I have patched things up; he's still an ass, but I'm trying hard to cut him some slack.
Other brother, in contrast, packed up his wife and son to go to Wisconsin for Memorial Day weekend to see the other grandparents.
I am LIVID. What is he thinking???????
But I will try to let go. I believe we're all doing the best we can, and his best is simply limp and crappy, that's all. He will have to live with it.
I had a long talk with my dear old friend J last night, who lost her sweet dad a few years ago, and she really helped me wrap my mind around it all. I never wanted this day to come, never, never — but there's nothing I can do about it. Dad had a good life, he was a great guy, beloved far and wide, and he and I have a wonderful relationship. Probably I will have more to say about this, but that's what I'm thinking about right now. I don't need to see him, there is no unfinished business between us — I would just like to. Mom held the phone to his (unresponsive) ear, and I said, "Daddy, it's Lady — please hang on till tomorrow, because I would like to see you and give you a hug and kiss."
But it's out of my hands, and I know this.
I can't wait to be home.
xox Lady C