I've been trudging along, trying to eat less food and to drink less hooch, trying to work in exercise when I can, and mostly the scale hasn't budged at all.
So here's what I did on Tuesday:
- Ate "breakfast spackle" (fat-free Greek yogurt, Kashi high-fiber crunch cereal, natural almonds)
- Was so full from that, I eschewed lunch and instead rode exercise bike and lifted weights.
- Took a two-hour bath, drank a pitcher of water.
- Ate a normal dinner: scrambled eggs with veg, Italian sausage link, banana bread, grapes.
But sister, I've been to this rodeo before, I have some experience with Xanada weight. I was happy and excited but didn't take it as My New Truth.
Here's what I did on Wednesday:
- Breakfast spackle. Yum!!
- Ate a normal (thrilling!) lunch with Mrs. Cynicletary: Greek salad, little dressing, grilled salmon, wine.
- Had post-work-stress migraine, eschewed dinner; instead grazed on comforting snacks: toasted banana bread, peanut-butter pretzels, ice cream bar, lots of icy diet soda.
- Went to bed early.
Eureka! Have I broken through???? This is very encouraging to a girl.
Also: I've started logging my food faithfully on FatSecret again and have asked Lady Darcy to "buddy" with me, as I know I can trust her to not nag or otherwise drive me crazy. But the act of reporting my food intake to another person — it does give a girl pause, which is good. I need to pause more.
I remember a day a few weeks ago when I did something good (can't remember what) and wanted to reward myself, and I had the darndest time coming up with a non-food non-alcohol reward! Usually I would say a hot bubble bath and/or a good book and/or a movie, but I was in the midst of editing and couldn't take that much of a time-out. I also don't remember what I ended up doing. OK, as an anecdote, this one won't make the "classics" list, perhaps, but still. I clearly need to come up with a list of reward options!
Recently I read "You Can Make Your Cravings Work for You" in O Magazine, and a couple of the tips especially resonated:
- Fill up on good fats in the morning. (In other words, this is the time for cheesy eggs, or sliced avocado on the side, or peanut butter on your toast.)
- Listen to your body—what foods really satisfy you? (Breakfast spackle!!!)
- Make a lunch you actually want to eat / Indulge in an afternoon pick-me-up you actually like. (Having leftover tossed salad in the fridge works well for me here. Add a handful of chickpeas or half a can of tuna, some good flavored vinegar, and seven Reduced-Fat Triscuits [that is a serving size — I know this by heart] — that is a delicious, satisfying, healthy lunch.)
- Follow the 3/4 rule: If you can't fully focus while eating (e.g., you're reading or in front of the computer), stop when you're 75 percent done and see how full you are, rather than mindlessly consume what's left. (I love this strategy and it makes a lot of sense to me, but I haven't employed it yet. Geneen Roth says that the inner voice that tells you you're satisfied is very quiet; if you're reading or watching TV or on the computer or otherwise distracted, you're likely not to hear it. This too makes a lot of sense to me. I am often surprised by how full I feel after eating what seemed like a small meal; clearly I need to pay more attention here.)
- Specific strategies work better than vague plans. (Yes!)
I will also sit down with Husband today and map out our meals for the rest of this week and all of next — we've been so busy, we're often eating on the fly these past few weeks, which doesn't always lead to the best choices.
How's that for a specific plan?
A pile of work awaits me. Onward!
— Lady C, a planner